Thursday, March 29, 2007
Kaant March Visudharom
Today is Kaant March's birthday. To most he was Mach. His mother called him "Machie" - which we all loved. And today would have been his 39th birthday.
He was always most moody between New Years and this day - and I have found myself most mournful of losing him on these 'bookend' dates as well. Since 1984, we did not miss a year connecting at the New Year - be it a phone call, or, in good years, a night out at New Year's Eve followed by brunch and a movie on Jan 1. But, the call did not happen this year. And I cannot send him an e-mail or call to wish him well on the completion of his moody time, as well as hear what exciting, thoughtful, and ambitious plans he cooked up for himself in his brewing. Or what his opinions were on the Oscars, fashion, or world events.
It seems fitting to remember him on a blog. He loved the internet. He loved technology and was well-known professionally for his great ideas on-line. (Which just kills me, since he couldn't operate a TV/VCR combo for many, many years.) And his college technology was a boom box (with Whitney Houston tapes) and a portable TV with a 6-inch screen. And I am sure he'd be horrified at my lack of good design on this blog. Horrified, but not surprised.
But Mach was a wonderfully complex person - who was so simple in his heart and soul. He loved people, his dog, his friends, and life in general. And was always looking for ways to make it all better, things prettier, and people happier.
With his passing, literally hundreds of people around the world have felt the void. I have been overwhelmingly honored to have been his friend for so many years - and I honored to have met and connected with so many who were close to him in completely different ways.
But, with that complexity comes the simple fact that I miss my friend. That part of my heart will never be the same. What I had as a seemingly permanent part of me, is now inexplicably gone.
I hope I remember all he was teaching in the way he lived his life. (Though, as you can see, I didn't pick up any design skills through osmosis)
I hope I take this and learn to not settle for mundane options. That I remember lack of charisma can be fatal, and make my life what I want it to be.
I will strive to remember what part of me came most alive when we were together - and strive not lose that enthusiasm, interest and optimism he fostered in us all.
Happy Birthday Mach. You are missed.
He was always most moody between New Years and this day - and I have found myself most mournful of losing him on these 'bookend' dates as well. Since 1984, we did not miss a year connecting at the New Year - be it a phone call, or, in good years, a night out at New Year's Eve followed by brunch and a movie on Jan 1. But, the call did not happen this year. And I cannot send him an e-mail or call to wish him well on the completion of his moody time, as well as hear what exciting, thoughtful, and ambitious plans he cooked up for himself in his brewing. Or what his opinions were on the Oscars, fashion, or world events.
It seems fitting to remember him on a blog. He loved the internet. He loved technology and was well-known professionally for his great ideas on-line. (Which just kills me, since he couldn't operate a TV/VCR combo for many, many years.) And his college technology was a boom box (with Whitney Houston tapes) and a portable TV with a 6-inch screen. And I am sure he'd be horrified at my lack of good design on this blog. Horrified, but not surprised.
But Mach was a wonderfully complex person - who was so simple in his heart and soul. He loved people, his dog, his friends, and life in general. And was always looking for ways to make it all better, things prettier, and people happier.
With his passing, literally hundreds of people around the world have felt the void. I have been overwhelmingly honored to have been his friend for so many years - and I honored to have met and connected with so many who were close to him in completely different ways.
But, with that complexity comes the simple fact that I miss my friend. That part of my heart will never be the same. What I had as a seemingly permanent part of me, is now inexplicably gone.
I hope I remember all he was teaching in the way he lived his life. (Though, as you can see, I didn't pick up any design skills through osmosis)
I hope I take this and learn to not settle for mundane options. That I remember lack of charisma can be fatal, and make my life what I want it to be.
I will strive to remember what part of me came most alive when we were together - and strive not lose that enthusiasm, interest and optimism he fostered in us all.
Happy Birthday Mach. You are missed.
# posted by Suefunky @ 9:42 AM 
